June 27th

i feel pretty decent today I'm water fasting so since around 11:00pm last night i have only consumed 10 kcal i hope to keep it this way for a couple days because my fatass body needs to be in a bathing suit Monday because my family is going on vacation....... YEAHHHH (NOT).  so i weighed myself today at  like 11:30 am and i have lost weight!!!! i was at like 127lbs and when i got on the scale today i was 122-121lbs its hard to tell my actual weight because i do not have a digital scale :'( but i will get one eventually!!!!

daily life

I just feel so alone like no one understands how i feel or takes it seriously... I am sitting alone in my bedroom wishing i could be 20 pounds thinner.... which would be normal if i wasnt already "skinny" to the worlds opinion... but in my eyes im a 300lbs girl who is ugly, pathetic and worthless... some days it isnt as bad and most of the time i can hide it but i hate feeling like im forced to eat... so im starting a fast but i will drink zero calorie beverages and sugar free jello i really need to lose weight again because i miss my hip bones and i dont want to be able to grab a fist full of my stomach.....